Last night was a tough one.

Classes haven't even started, and I've considered leaving the program. Part of it is financial (CUA's program is about three times as expensive as UMD's); part of it is the stress of being on both sides of education.
While financial aid is generally a wonderful thing, it has its share of problems. I had been planning on taking only one class this semester to test the waters. Then, I would probably take two classes in the spring and apply for a scholarship that would make me full time. Here's where the problem lies: financial aid is only available if I take six credits or more. One class is only three credits. So, I'd need to add a class or pay for the other class entirely up front.
So this is what I'll do. I'll take the two classes this fall, and drop out if it seems like it'll be too much to handle. I don't think it'll be too much, but we'll see. I'll also take two classes in the spring and apply for the full-time, full-ride scholarship as well as the MLS program at UMD, where the credits will hopefully transfer. If I get the scholarship (or if I feel extremely confident about spending the rest of the degree time at CUA), I'll stay there. If I don't get it, but I do get into the UMD program, I'll transfer.

Hopefully the breakdown of last night will be the only one. My wonderful wife promised that she'll do what she needs to do in order to help me get through it all.